- my moments with music` ]] ~~

Sunday, November 19, 2006

I thought I am preparing for an important event tommorow, later , I take a hard look at my letter . The event held on sat instead of monday.

I thought "Y like this?"

Supposed to be there in the morning , but the most unforgettable part of the day is the musical.

I realised it is pre -destined. Previously , there is 2 such event and I thought I am going , hopefully. But , in the end , I did not turn up.

It is good opportunity but i gave a miss it purposely. I don't want to miss this chance , still i think is imp but I let it go.

Then, now i realised, i am tired. Tired of doing something repeatedly and do it again. MAybe I need a rest . I pretty long rest before I will like to attempt again. I mean, I see no reason of doing it when I am gonna leave soon .

Maybe God will like me to go this pathway. I believe this is the best pathway to be .

As i have learnt in a hard way that , life , is to take it a step at a time. No matter how fate throw at you . Doing it's best and enjoy it fullest. Let's make it my motto of " be contented of what I have and I am the happiness person in the world".

However this reminded me of one of the songs that sung at the musical of notre dame :

The Voluptuary.

Light of delight, when everything's alright.
The first man to hold you tight, and show love in all its might.
May no hands other than mine, ever touch your love so fine.
Dark angel of the street, hold on to me I'll show you night is sweet.
Hold on to me; let me see how your wild wings beat.

We, though we're not the same, burn in a single flame.
I want your love; I will risk all my life for you.
Take me; take me if it is my destiny.
Come see, come see if it's your destiny.

Oh destiny, you are the master of man.
Oh destiny, you write our lives in the sand.
Oh destiny, though we do all that we can.
Oh destiny, you say if we fall or stand.
Oh destiny, you hold our lives in your hand.

Oh destiny.
Oh destiny.
Oh destiny.

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Now thinking about the musical , I do pity Quasimodo (the hunchback monster of notre dame) when he utter the words:

God you made the world all wrong, I'm so ugly; he's so fine.
I would love her my life long, but she never would be mine.
Now he owns her heart and soul, without giving her a thing.
And she thinks he'll make her whole, with the love she thinks he'll bring.
She will lie down at his touch, and believe his lies with pride.
It's his face she loves so much, she can't see what's deep inside.
God you made the world all wrong, he's so rich; and I'm so poor.
He will make her life a song; he will give her nothing more.
God you made the world all wrong, let her have her shining knight.
Beauty to the rich belongs, not to us outside the light.
I am just an ugly stain that the world just wants to hide.
God you gave me so much pain, were you ever on my side?
God you made the world all wrong, I have nothing; he has all.
But I'll tell her all along he won't be there is she falls.
He was born to silk and lace, to make love and to make war.
I was born without a face; God, what did you make me for?
Tell me what side god is on, those whose silver buys the host?
Or those who pray to god alone, day and night, this Holy Ghost.
Can this Jesus we adore save his blessing only for.
Those three kings of gold and myrrh, and leave the shepherds at the door?
God you made the world so wrong, I'm so ugly; he's so fine.
I will love her my life long.
But she never will be mine.

He fall in love with beautiful gypsy Esmeralda but her heart belongs to someone else.

Elva told me that night she said the most unforgettable part is the words he say "I know I love you , I don't know if you do love me but I know I love you very very much" .

Becoz he is ugly?
Becoz he is not rich?
Becoz he don't shower you with oh- so- touching love quotes?
Becoz he don't ride on the white horse with shining armor?

How true the old love tragic that reflects modern tales. How many times so true the feeling is , this feeling is not reproached. How many times you have giving this real feeling but it is not trusted. Till one day you thought that this feeling of yours can't be trusted by yourself too?
How to prove this real love ?
Till we died?
So we died ....
But , you are not there anymore.
Dead people don't tell you "yes you are my true love, let's have eternal love together"
Maybe you like to join them to their grave to have "eternally love"
NO wonder they say love is blind foolish game.

Maybe I am trapped within Practical and Truth.Trying to live with truth is the right thing to do but practical shows are actually taking place. But people is actually happier to live with practical substances. People are love taking junk food but what actually norishing for their health is real food. Constantly.

I am don't believe I am going back work 2moro . I thought I have excuse to take MC .
Going to slp , let me dream that that poor hunchback fellow suddenly turn into handsome prince when he saw his lovely Esmeralda dying and when Esmeralda saw the pretty face , chunks of muscles 6 packs, she will wake up and thinking to rather die later .

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